Eilis is described as "hesitant and slow" (as a customer shopping).
She seems to usually feel like others know what to do and she doesn't.
She pretends to be sick to miss a dance.
In a sense, she's doing exciting things and making new connections and learning a lot. In another sense, she's just letting life happen to her, doing what she must, and not sparing a thought for more. I've come to see her as a wonderful example of an unhealthy enneagram 9.
Here are a couple more quotes I pulled out. I notice now that all of them are 9ish things to which I relate.
"For each day, she thought, she needed a whole other day to contemplate
what had happened and store it away, get it out of her system, so that
it did not keep her awake at night, or fill her dreams with flashes of
what had actually happened, and other flashes that had nothing to do
with anything familiar, but were full of rushes of color, or crowds of
people, everything frenzied and fast."
"She would not try to postpone any further what she had to do, but the prospect of [telling others what she had decided to do] still filled her with fear, enough for her once more to put both ideas out of her mind. She would think about them soon, she thought, but not now."
"But she realized that it would be best to do nothing."
Was there ever a truer summation of my numbed out, void of all intention, tendencies than that second to last on?! Oh, the thought of making anyone else unhappy is just too scary, so "I think I'll just think about that later."
I was really, really hoping that we would see some growth in her by the end. I mean, even if it had to be the decision between 2 love interests, pick boldly, and pick for yourself! But until the very end, we never knew what she wanted. Did she even know what she wanted? I felt defeated along with her. Such behavior in another is so obvious. Lord, have mercy.
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